I don’t know who I am anymore. I have lost my place once again. I can’t quite figure out why or where I went wrong. The road is ahead of me and I am way behind, blocks away and every time I try to catch up I fall behind once again...There are so many things I could have done by now but I didn’t and I don’t know what stopped me...It’s not good enough to have dreams I’ve learned. It’s not good enough to me...I want more for myself... I want to break free from all the people I depend on. I depend on too many people. I am always waiting for someone to tell me what to do or where to go, I am always waiting for someone to call me back or leave a message on my phone... I want to do things my own way, I want to draw my own map of life, not someone else’s...I need to get out of here and start living for myself because I can’t live like this, it’s causing too much pain for me...
What was once satisfying for me is no longer satisfying, not even close...There are feelings inside of me that I am tired of trying to explain...
I didn’t have a single happy day this week…I tried to find a way out...but just couldn’t...
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